Ahh..!!! Is that True??

The Part of You That No One Sees is Afraid

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Indian PARENTS...!!!

To begin with; Firstly I would like to apologize if i hurt anybody's sentiments by writing this. Although I am not writing this post intending to hurt anybody's feelings or emotions and possibly this does not address to all the parents of India but yes this does address to MY Parents and to the Parents who think on the similar lines or even worse than what my parents ideologies state for me and my brother or any other kid they would have had.

It just so started happening that as soon as I came back from Dubai, my best friends parents got to know about the 'affair'( we use a better term relationship to describe it!) she was in with a guy!
And Damn, after knowing this they literally made her life worse than hell for like at least two weeks following the breaking news...!!!

For me it was never a surprise of parents (specially Indian) reacting a bit weird when they get to know about the relationship of their so called still 'kids' 21-22 yrs old children!! But then I just have one question to all those parents reacting in somewhat really objectionable manner according to us.... " HAVE U NEVER EVER DONE WHAT COMES NATURALLY TO EVERY HUMAN BEING????"

I have always failed to understand the fact that why do parents stop their kids from falling into love?? or deciding on the person with whom they want to spend their life with? or for that matter when will they ever understand that 'life can be understood backwards, but it has to be lived forwardly'!
They want their children to lead their lives according to their will and wish, sacrificing their own happiness for them and lastly if you dont do so then you arent a good son or daughter!!!

For them love marriages and that too God forbid if is out of caste, creed or religion is the worst fear! They would disown you from their property, home etc and to the worst limit of disowning you from their names too.. Just because you didn care about what will people think, what will society think, because you havent fulfilled your responsibilities as sons and daughters, because you have done something which no one ever had done in the entire family tree and blah blah blah factor!!!

Just a curosity: Why dont they ever think that we are happy with our own decisions and are big enough to answer ourselves and anybody else for that matter.
Why dont they ever wonder that when they worship Gods and Deities who have been famous in the Indian Mythology for marrying person of their own choice in a ceremony called 'Swayamvar' why are we stopped to follow them, whom are parents worship..!!!
Why do they fear that the relation we choose for ourselves wont work? Why do they feel that arrange marriages are more successful than love marriages?? and if it is so then why do divorces at all happen?

Its time enough though for them to accept us along with the choices we make , for it is the choice and we who will have to stay lifelong together...!!!!

Black...

Black is the colour of your eyes...
deep, dark and serene..
Speak volumes,,,
Black the colour of night sky..
Partly being covered by a million stars... still ruling over their brightness and shines as bright....
Black is the essence of all colours,
Makes me realise the importance of them...
Black once signified doom and gloom,
But, made me realise without black happiness will lose its importance,
Black is my colour of skin
Making me feel that I am not fair but beautiful,
black is my soul, still pure and enlightened...
universe exploded out of black...
and will end one day into black..
Black is where we will end one day,,, the colour of our grave,,,
the colour of our ASHES........

NEW....but Fearful..!!!

Its a New morning, A new day, a new week (sunday is a working day for me, a day when my new week starts..), and a new month..!! Gives a nice warm feeling everytime something new starts into my life but this time i wanted that the month of March should just skip away from the calender..!!

It is the month that the news channels and the business magazines made me fear the most.. All read aloud that 'deeper recession to be faced during march', 'more jobs to be cut off during march', 'world to see a greater slowdown in march' etc etc etc.

Have nothing much to say but just that have a happy time during this month.. Hoping recession does not kill us anymore and hoping that people do not loose their bread with the ongoing recession..!!

Keep hope alive..

Silence is not always gold..!!

It is very true that love understands the language that nobody else does.. The sign language, the words spoken by eyes, the touch, the feel and all the other means of communication that ever exist is the world!

But,

Even love has certain limitations, it does have constraints after which it stops understanding the fact, the message, the feelings, the emotions that one wants to transfer into others mind and heart..!!

I am just not contradicting the statement and words of great romantic poets nor I am trying to say that Romeo and Juliet dont exit but just that they have only existed because they said all the unsaid words too..
They shared their hearts and made cry out louder in front of each other.
It really does become important at a point of time to make sure that the one you love is speaking what he actually is feeling for you (more in a condition when he is irritated over you!) else once the volcano bombards and explodes it becomes really difficult to gather the tits and tatters of the bond which brakes and almost impossible to join them back into the similar shape it was earlier...

Even if it happens the cracks are still visible, which never fade away..!!

Silence is not always golden..

A Long Dark Night...!!!

I had bid him bye, wished him dreams and was trying to comfort my senses and making myself at ease. But, there was a pain which was not letting me relax and made my heart ponder over all the wierdest of the thoughts I could have ever met!

With a sudden rush of hormones into my bloodstream made me realize that it was the unease of not blabbing my heart to him.(it was actually long now dat i didn tell him how much i love him, how much i care for him and he means my world to me!!!)
I checked the time in my cell phone. It was about 3:30 am and i knew he was still awake.
I clicked my fingers as fast as possible on the cell phones keypad and my thoughts were beating my speed. I had so much to say, so much to express but was all out of words!!
I cleared the message i was typing at least three times and then came upto a final draft which was even more pathetic than the last three ones i erased and edited but then i decided to send the message.
I conveyed him what I wanted to, although in bits and parts but was now feeling relaxed.

I then again realised that sleep was nowhere near me. I knew the reason, and even knew that he would never respond back so its just useless waiting for his reply but I could not convince my heart for believing that. The clock was rushing its speed and i was still lying awake in a hope that he might just say 'Thank you' or 'Take care'. But, in the back of my mind i knew he never would. The sun started spreading its rays and i was still awake in a hope.
He never bothered to retort back ( I would have been happy even if he would have said some nasty words..)

I am still awake in a hope that someday he will understand what i feel for him and he will once atleast reciprocate back.

My long dark night will come to an end. It will be a bright day someday....!!!

Sunshine.

And the OSCAR goes to.... !!!

I had just clicked on the homepage of my mational daily and the opening news was stunning to make a day for any INDIAN... AR Rahman bags two Oscars... Oscars into India's lap too... Bollywoods road to Oscars..!!! And soo many more lines similar to the preceeding ones.

24th Feburary 2009 surely has been marked with golden words in the history of India and the Indian film industry (BOLLYWOOD), where AR Rahman, Pookutty and Gulzar have held India's face high and won the very first OSCARS for it.



This is the right time for all the nurturing talent to spice up themselves and move a step forward and outshine their hidden passions and make the entire nation proud of them.

Live the true Indian spirit, Live India and Live the true Indian in you!

Cheers to all three of you!!!

JAI HO!!!