Search for happiness.....

In the words of my sweetheart's favorite author Richard Bach:
"The best way to pay for a lovely moment is to enjoy it."

I read this line and it again made me sit for a while and ponder again as to the way we live our life is right or not??? are we leading our life in a right direction or not????? well the answer came again by the very fact that do whatever u do with full dedication and commitment that at last u are satisfied and feel happy by accomplishing that particular task!!! That is one way i feel i did find my way to true happiness......

But not to be mistaken!!! i still have that very attitude which says...

"What's the use of worrying?
It never was worth while,
So pack up your troubles in your old kit-bag,
And smile, smile, smile."

According to me one will never be happy if he or she continues to search for what happiness consists of as it is similar as one never lives if he or she looks for the meaning of life.
Happiness comes in small packets and we must try and grab those small pieces of life for they only knock once and make our life worthwhile.... We generally overlook those things which provide us happiness in that very moment and try to look forward to bigger packages.... and in this turn we actually get upset for we don get any!!!
We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.Take in for instance i feel really happy over smallest of things that nobody would ever feel happy on!! like if i get a morning message from my friend or love.. or even if i get a call from my sweetheart who just calls me up from his busy schedule to tell me that he was missing me!!! or wen my best friend gives me a surprise small birthday cake prepared by her or my college friends gimme a surprise birthday treat which i already knew (i mean it was no surprise for me)........
All such incidents keep me feel connected to happiness and life..... i love leading my life the very way it is..... but still at times i feel there is something lacking!!!!
and when i sat today and gazed at this question as to why i m still not feeling happy despite of the fact that i have everything at its level best..... these things include:

1. Supportive and understanding family.
2. parents as good as friends
3. helping friends
   
4. my shadow... i.e. my best friend josie
5. a loving sweetheart(my guide my mentor)

so what else do i need for true happiness..... and then it struck me.... that my expectations from everybody around kills my happiness... but then "expectations is a merely wild word.....for we expect things only from the people we are related to and if we don expect anything from them then it means the relation is dead... its no more..." so again the problem remains stuck up and yet not fixed up.... We all are bonded into some or the other relation with each other ... for even if we don know each other still are connected as strangers... so i think that there is certain connection between every individual.. so for this reason is it that "Love is the condition in which the 'Happiness' of another person is essential to your own"

but to sum up this all what i feel is that:

"When we have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, we know that the person can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him; and we are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night we cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts we encounter."

My advent into a newer life...

Well to begin i would actually like to thank all the concerned people who made me come and sit in front of this bugging screen and tap my fingers on this typewriter alike keyboard forcing me to think for all what i never thought i will...... all the credit goes to them and to the mental agony and torture given by them!!! well to be true its actually really beneficial for me for the reason i m today back to MY own life... i m back to what i was earlier!!! and i m really happy for myself..... thanx to everybody responsible for it......

Now coming to the point where my mind is running faster than my hands on this keyboard i would firstly like to tell all the very people reading this blog that why am i naming this entry as my advent into a newer life.... just for a simple reason that from today onwards i have decided to live a life which makes me feel really really happy and free... the most Easiest way according to me to find happiness is just be with "who cares attitude..." and trust me u'll start living ur life that day!!! the next question hopping into my mind is that how to achieve this... and i can guarantee you that if a super emotional and highly sentimental girl like me could achieve it then it is very much possible for u!!!!!

well it just takes a few instances to realize that u and ur life is going in a wrong direction and we really need to work upon it in order to get the real meaning of happiness......
1. wen u start over thinking about one issue.
2. wen something done by someone starts hurting u badly.
3. for no good reasons u start feeling upset, worried and insecure.
4. u have sudden mood swings.....

not really these are the only symptoms of life taking a wrong direction and u being unhappy but for me they were the very responsible ones!!!!!

now what did i do.......
1. stopped thinking about everybody except for myself...(may be i m selfish now)... but whats wrong even if i m and that makes me happy???
2. i started with my who cares attitude!!!
3. have actually learned that if its u then there is world and its not the other way round!!!
4. i only do things what i feel are right and what i enjoy doing... i don do things anymore asked by people for them!!!!!

well its just the beginning.... may be i m wrong in my approach of finding true happiness but then at last it is again a thing as who cares.... i m happy this way so let me be....!!!!!