Ahh..!!! Is that True??

The Part of You That No One Sees is Afraid

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Indian PARENTS...!!!

To begin with; Firstly I would like to apologize if i hurt anybody's sentiments by writing this. Although I am not writing this post intending to hurt anybody's feelings or emotions and possibly this does not address to all the parents of India but yes this does address to MY Parents and to the Parents who think on the similar lines or even worse than what my parents ideologies state for me and my brother or any other kid they would have had.

It just so started happening that as soon as I came back from Dubai, my best friends parents got to know about the 'affair'( we use a better term relationship to describe it!) she was in with a guy!
And Damn, after knowing this they literally made her life worse than hell for like at least two weeks following the breaking news...!!!

For me it was never a surprise of parents (specially Indian) reacting a bit weird when they get to know about the relationship of their so called still 'kids' 21-22 yrs old children!! But then I just have one question to all those parents reacting in somewhat really objectionable manner according to us.... " HAVE U NEVER EVER DONE WHAT COMES NATURALLY TO EVERY HUMAN BEING????"

I have always failed to understand the fact that why do parents stop their kids from falling into love?? or deciding on the person with whom they want to spend their life with? or for that matter when will they ever understand that 'life can be understood backwards, but it has to be lived forwardly'!
They want their children to lead their lives according to their will and wish, sacrificing their own happiness for them and lastly if you dont do so then you arent a good son or daughter!!!

For them love marriages and that too God forbid if is out of caste, creed or religion is the worst fear! They would disown you from their property, home etc and to the worst limit of disowning you from their names too.. Just because you didn care about what will people think, what will society think, because you havent fulfilled your responsibilities as sons and daughters, because you have done something which no one ever had done in the entire family tree and blah blah blah factor!!!

Just a curosity: Why dont they ever think that we are happy with our own decisions and are big enough to answer ourselves and anybody else for that matter.
Why dont they ever wonder that when they worship Gods and Deities who have been famous in the Indian Mythology for marrying person of their own choice in a ceremony called 'Swayamvar' why are we stopped to follow them, whom are parents worship..!!!
Why do they fear that the relation we choose for ourselves wont work? Why do they feel that arrange marriages are more successful than love marriages?? and if it is so then why do divorces at all happen?

Its time enough though for them to accept us along with the choices we make , for it is the choice and we who will have to stay lifelong together...!!!!

Black...

Black is the colour of your eyes...
deep, dark and serene..
Speak volumes,,,
Black the colour of night sky..
Partly being covered by a million stars... still ruling over their brightness and shines as bright....
Black is the essence of all colours,
Makes me realise the importance of them...
Black once signified doom and gloom,
But, made me realise without black happiness will lose its importance,
Black is my colour of skin
Making me feel that I am not fair but beautiful,
black is my soul, still pure and enlightened...
universe exploded out of black...
and will end one day into black..
Black is where we will end one day,,, the colour of our grave,,,
the colour of our ASHES........

NEW....but Fearful..!!!

Its a New morning, A new day, a new week (sunday is a working day for me, a day when my new week starts..), and a new month..!! Gives a nice warm feeling everytime something new starts into my life but this time i wanted that the month of March should just skip away from the calender..!!

It is the month that the news channels and the business magazines made me fear the most.. All read aloud that 'deeper recession to be faced during march', 'more jobs to be cut off during march', 'world to see a greater slowdown in march' etc etc etc.

Have nothing much to say but just that have a happy time during this month.. Hoping recession does not kill us anymore and hoping that people do not loose their bread with the ongoing recession..!!

Keep hope alive..

Silence is not always gold..!!

It is very true that love understands the language that nobody else does.. The sign language, the words spoken by eyes, the touch, the feel and all the other means of communication that ever exist is the world!

But,

Even love has certain limitations, it does have constraints after which it stops understanding the fact, the message, the feelings, the emotions that one wants to transfer into others mind and heart..!!

I am just not contradicting the statement and words of great romantic poets nor I am trying to say that Romeo and Juliet dont exit but just that they have only existed because they said all the unsaid words too..
They shared their hearts and made cry out louder in front of each other.
It really does become important at a point of time to make sure that the one you love is speaking what he actually is feeling for you (more in a condition when he is irritated over you!) else once the volcano bombards and explodes it becomes really difficult to gather the tits and tatters of the bond which brakes and almost impossible to join them back into the similar shape it was earlier...

Even if it happens the cracks are still visible, which never fade away..!!

Silence is not always golden..

A Long Dark Night...!!!

I had bid him bye, wished him dreams and was trying to comfort my senses and making myself at ease. But, there was a pain which was not letting me relax and made my heart ponder over all the wierdest of the thoughts I could have ever met!

With a sudden rush of hormones into my bloodstream made me realize that it was the unease of not blabbing my heart to him.(it was actually long now dat i didn tell him how much i love him, how much i care for him and he means my world to me!!!)
I checked the time in my cell phone. It was about 3:30 am and i knew he was still awake.
I clicked my fingers as fast as possible on the cell phones keypad and my thoughts were beating my speed. I had so much to say, so much to express but was all out of words!!
I cleared the message i was typing at least three times and then came upto a final draft which was even more pathetic than the last three ones i erased and edited but then i decided to send the message.
I conveyed him what I wanted to, although in bits and parts but was now feeling relaxed.

I then again realised that sleep was nowhere near me. I knew the reason, and even knew that he would never respond back so its just useless waiting for his reply but I could not convince my heart for believing that. The clock was rushing its speed and i was still lying awake in a hope that he might just say 'Thank you' or 'Take care'. But, in the back of my mind i knew he never would. The sun started spreading its rays and i was still awake in a hope.
He never bothered to retort back ( I would have been happy even if he would have said some nasty words..)

I am still awake in a hope that someday he will understand what i feel for him and he will once atleast reciprocate back.

My long dark night will come to an end. It will be a bright day someday....!!!

Sunshine.

And the OSCAR goes to.... !!!

I had just clicked on the homepage of my mational daily and the opening news was stunning to make a day for any INDIAN... AR Rahman bags two Oscars... Oscars into India's lap too... Bollywoods road to Oscars..!!! And soo many more lines similar to the preceeding ones.

24th Feburary 2009 surely has been marked with golden words in the history of India and the Indian film industry (BOLLYWOOD), where AR Rahman, Pookutty and Gulzar have held India's face high and won the very first OSCARS for it.



This is the right time for all the nurturing talent to spice up themselves and move a step forward and outshine their hidden passions and make the entire nation proud of them.

Live the true Indian spirit, Live India and Live the true Indian in you!

Cheers to all three of you!!!

JAI HO!!!

My Birthdate....

You Are a Mediator

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist. A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around. You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you. You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people. Your strength: Your devotion Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness Your power color: Lilac Your power symbol: Heart Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Happy New Year!!!

Well just lying down on my bed it suddenly struck me that I haven’t written anything worthwhile for my sweetheart..

I haven’t dedicated anything to him so far. And on a very true note I am feeling too lazy and stressed up to write something innovative and original work right now.. Sorry honey for this. (But even you know that exams are heading on and dancing their feet on our so called dead gray matter). And even a way to sorry for hurting him and fighting with him on this very new years eve.. I am so sorry baby for all the times i did not understood you and faught with you, hurting you.. Hope this makes up atleast some part of it..

So what can be done is that I will dedicate all the lines and words that I every time keep thinking about you and me and we as in totality.
Here are two of them...

ALL I’VE EVER WANTED (Mariah Carey)

If you only knew
What I feel for you
If you only lived for me
The way I live for you
I’d be in heaven
My dreams would come true
Because all I’ve ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I’ve ever wanted
Is you
If you were my own
To caress and hold
I would shower you with love
And drown within your soul
Because I live and breathe for you
And I really need to know
That all I’ve ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I’ve ever wanted
Is you
Everything I do is for you
You are every part of me
And I don’t want to face
Another day
Alone
Without your love
Because all I’ve ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I’ve ever wanted
Is you






Ye tumhaari meri baatein ( Rock on!)

Ye
tumhari meri baatein
humesha yuheen chalti rahein
ye
humari mulakaten
humesha yuheen chalti rahein
beete yuheen apne saare din raat
baaton se nikalti rahe nayee baat
phir wohi
baatein leke
geet koi hum likhen
jo
dil ko
haan sabke dil ko chhoolen
baatein suron mein tuheen pighalti rahein
baatein geeton mein yuheen dhalti rahein
geeton mein har gham ko
khushiyon se hum sajaden
jo sunne kahe woh humse
gao na

ye
tumhari meri baatein
humesha yuheen chalti rahein
ye
humari mulakaten
humesha yuheen chalti rahein
beete yuheen apne saare din raat
baaton se nikalti rahe nayee baat
phir wohi
baatein leke
geet koi hum likhen
jo
dil ko
haan sabke dil ko chhoolen
baatein suron mein tuheen pighalti rahein
baatein geeton mein yuheen dhalti rahein
geeton mein har gham ko
khushiyon se hum sajaden
jo sunne kahe woh humse
gao na

A very happy New Year darling!! Love you forever and ever. May you get all the happiness you wish too.... and I know we still have to see a lot of beautiful surprises to see in all the new years to come.
I m so happy and lucky and moreover sooooo proud to be with you.


Wishing you A very Happy New Year again..
Love.
DUMDUM...... ;)

A new Day..!

Rest your head in my lap and close your eyes
Everything will be okay
For when you wake with the sweet sunrise
It will be a brand new day...
A new sunshine will await for you and me,
clearing out all dark and gray..
Things will seem fresh and everything bright,
A hope of ray will reach our souls saying evrything is perfectly right!!!

Turn down the lights and pull me close
Feel only the beating of our hearts as we lay
Read my soul which says aloud I love you
And see the sparkle into my eyes which read That I m the most HAPPY with you!!

Relax your body and let me caress your soft hair
Empty Let all of life's worries melt away
For when you wake with the warm summer scent
It will be a brand new day..

Fall fast asleep and dream with me
You Whisper "I love you,"
And I say: "I'm here to stay"
For when we wake in each other's arms
It will be a brand new day...
You giving me my sunshine smile...
Where You are my Sun who gives Your sunshine to me!!!

Search.. And its END~~~

It was a long going search...
A search for happiness,
A search for contentment,
A search for dreams to be realised,
A search for true love
A search for you.....

My search began as an endless journey
People came into my life with a noise
And walked away silently..
Their noise was unpleasant and harsh
And their silence was even more suffocating and killing...

But, it was only you
Who walked in silently..
Waiting for me to realise your unsaid silence
You did not utter a word but still,
Spoke a thousand words..
Understood all my unsaid words..

Your words have always been a hymn for me
Close to my heart, deep down enjoyed and cherished..
The sweet mellow voice of yours
Makes me tap on the rhythm of love..

My search is no more into existence..

For now you are my happiness
You are my contentment
You are my realised dreams
You are my true love
You are an end to my search!!!


LOVE U NOW AND FOREVER......

Empty Vessels.. My mind.. Making noises!!!

I had made a promise to someone that I will be writing at least one post every month for my blog but this time it’s almost the ending of November and I haven’t written a single post... Sorry for that but as i have said this a million times, that I write only when a certain idea tickles my neurons really hard that i HAVE no option but to put that thought into words....

I keep waiting for a million years and try to strangle that very idea, try to simplify it and get on the solution myself but t last when I don’t succeed I have no option but, to pen it down because of the urge growing stronger to do so..
And even this time there is someone responsible enough to make me sit and wonder and write all this.. Thanks a ton to everyone who is responsible for making me fulfil my promise and even making me sit as a stationary object and spend some time with myself...

This just didn’t start a while back but is a long way story but what happened that I made myself think deeply for starting a thought process. It was that whenever I used to visit the boys hostel someone was there who used to complain about that. (Although it was allowed in our campus for girls to visit to the boys hostel) and the guard used to tell me a statement which I could never interpret.

But that statement was responsible for planting the seed into my brain which was dynamite enough to start making my neurons works again. He just said that “aap bura nahi maan na.. Par aapki dosti se koi jalta hai” (don’t feel bad but there is someone who is jealous with your friendship).

This just wasn’t responsible. Even earlier my friends used to come and tell me that people do have certain issues with me. (Which actually are no issues to be bothered about according to me) but then I can just not help my sagacity when it comes to its zenith and tries to solve all the unsolved problems..
This had ticked the clock in my brain and I elapsed into the past where my best friend jyotsana used to tell me that “I am actually weird”..

At that time I did not have the answer but now that the seed has been planted. And ever since then I have been thinking, why is it people do not like me? Why is that most of the people scorn at the mention of my name? Moreover is there really something into me that makes people jealous of me!!!!????

So, what makes people like people? Or what is it that people DO NOT like about people, and how much do I care what others think of me? More ever adding to the mental agony and thoughts is that do people really have so much of time to spare that they can actually wonder about me or is it that I m so very important that they can spare such precious time out from their busy lives and talk about me!!!
Well whatever it may be but the crux of the entire thing can be summed up in one short sentence that it is not me but the people who are weird!!!

wondering what makes me say all this??? or to a higher extent u must be telling yourself or the guy sitting next to you that who the hell is she to say that "we"the people are weird!!!
But it is just not so surprising that you people are getting bothered by such a miniature statement of mine..
Well right now i m not here to criticize somebody or to tell somebody that he or she is wrong while bitching about somebody ...
BUT BUT BUT...

Just to remember that it is very important to be one self and try empathasing with others because 'A man should firstly direct himself in the direction he has to go.. make his path cleared and then direct and instruct others'!! without knowing oneself one should not comment on anybody for whatever reason it may be...

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others the permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fears, our agony and our own creadted factors of jealousy and wrath for others, our presence automatically liberates other people!!!




It is the most important to learn love ourself and live the life we are meant to live...

lastly... lets make ourselves the most important in our lives... just for a simple and petty issue why do we need give somebody soooo very much of impotance that we need to discuss that soul instead of ourselves!!!

Happy to Live... Lucky to go......

Personality Check..

I was reading one of my friends blog and suddenly i came across this test which prompted me to analyze myself and get to know what kind of personality do i have.
This test was somewhere very close to my personality traits and made me realise what kind of human being I am.
U all too can take this test and get to know yourself better. The link in provided at the end of the post.

P.S. I would like to request all my friends reading this blog to put light on the accuracy of this test and temme does is really stand true on me???
Pls do leave a comment...

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

If you are Gone...

You‘ve been there in times bright,

To remind me of the darkness,

To show me light,

When I gave myself to those miserable nights...

You’ve been there all this time,

I don't want you to slip away from my hands,

leaving me alone, remorse and in pain...

It’s not a game that we’ve been playing,

‘Coz games have their rules defined....

I define “void”, Me without you,

this void would vanish forever,

For it’s the truth if you would be gone.

Hearty giggles, precious tears,

Long night chats, and missing you everywhere..

Unanswered questions, pieces of time, Some things you’d leave behind!

As the teeth of time sink into us
the bond grows stronger,

Something makes me realize

If you are gone

Life would have no meaning,

Nothing at all..............!!!

Journey into The Unknown!!! With the known....

A step into a complete unknown yet a much known world…
A step into a new phase of life…
A step into an entire new journey called life…
A step putting forward in order to look behind…
A step stepping up to never look down….
A step taking on and on to never turn back…
A step to furnish my life, my soul and search happiness….





Sitting back and lying down on the sea side... Gazing at the open sky which is full of the dusky hues, the beauty of sunset makes the water of the sea look so calm yet is disturbed internally, the ever expanding horizon and the star fishes and coral reefs all by the seashore….
Isn’t our life very similar to all this??? At least mine is…
Anyways I ain’t here to talk about this but rather to tell you all that I’ll soon be stepping into an entire new world. My so called world of post- graduation. This post graduation is to take place into an entire new country and with entire new lot of people where I m not expecting anything but living frugally on surprises!!!

Feeling of loneliness, insecurity and despair bubbles inside me and make me really scared and apprehensive to enter into this mysterious world …
A journey of the unknown where the worst can take place and the best is yet to be seen..
Waiting if I could see the miracle of a single flower blooming clearly, my whole life would change…
But thank you all (my new clan. IMT Dubai clan, my new friends) for making things really easy and simple for me and helping me develop a belief that this new universe will show me a new way and make me reach the pinnacle of the avalanche I am about to start climbing… I just read this somewhere: "Do not save your loving speeches for your friends till they are dead. Do not write them on their tombstones, speak them rather now instead. "

So this post is dedicated to You all .... "Like branches of a tree we will grow in different directions, yet our roots remain as one. Each of our lives will always be a special part of the other's."

This goes for you all.. And sorry people if I m annoying you by using some of your pics without seeking permission from you but I guess I think you are my friends and hence taking all this for granted………
These are the views and perceptions I made about you all and I m being very true and fair to myself while writing this. I just don’t mean to hurt or disturb anybody’s emotions and feeling. For we all are the same but just that are liked by someone and disliked by someone else………..

But all in all i would like to tell you all one thing; Old friends pass away, new friends appear. It is just like the days. An old day passes, a new day arrives. The important thing is to make it meaningful: a meaningful friend -- or a meaningful day.

Ankita Batra- Had I started in alphabetical order even then your name would definitely come on the top, and the main reason is that you were the first one to make me believe what if all others are not as good as me or actually don’t match my mental status but you’ll be there with me and we both will make sure to execute all the plans we knit sitting in amity..
People this girl is really sweet and very peppy (arpit that is according to you).. she is very true to herself and has made me learn to be the same.
This sleek, samrt, slender soul has a real tough girl inside her to fight the world!!! She carries that gentle disposition on her face who aided me in my hard times.. Thanx a lot for being there when I needed you the most!!!
Hopefully we’ll be the roommates and will make sure to utilize all the potential that we have aimed at. Sweetheart please be the same forever!!!


Next is Mr. Arpit Uniyal
Arpit on a very true note I would like to tell you that you are one of those rarest gems that I have cherished being friends with. I truly admire you for tolerating me and my sarcasms over you and ur photographs. Ok but that does not mean you don’t remain ‘champu’.. U always be that. Mr. stylo.. You always look out at everything with style...
Well you are born with a hell lot of patience and tolerance for all the world’s weirdest things which even includes me. I love your company and truly enjoy it. You give me such wonderful company in bitching about people and you actually understand what I really mean to say (hopefully)!!!You are a gem of a person who is somehow really close to my heart. You are a sweetheart and one of the guys in demand… lol!!! Well I’ll always be there for you even if you aren’t there for me…………

Then is Mr Ankur The Great!!! (sorry pic not available)
We do not share a lot many things but have two things in common… firstly the city, then our reading tastes.. Yes please don’t be surprised for even he has a great taste and passion for reading. He is even a voracious reader!!!
And if you analyze him on a larger perspective then you’ll find out that this man is one big time leader. He has immense power and courage to take an initiative and moreover he makes it sure that he gives the task a proper shape and ends it beautifully!!! Thanx to You Ankur for making the delhi meet possible and giving it a true shape…
He can laugh his heart out… If leadership at one time meant muscles; today it means getting along with people so Ankur is a deadly combo of both!!! He makes it a point to keep you updated via his posts on community and all and utmost important he reads my posts on blog and even appreciates them!!!! lol!! That is rarely done by anyone!!!


So next is Miss Gorgeous REEMA......
Reema what should I say about you girl!!! You already have bowled out all the other pretty lasses with your personified charm and charisma!! You are one of the souls who is very pure at heart and the worst thing in you is that you dont find any thing wrong in anybody ... Lord!! It really becomes so difficult bitching about people with you.. You are really pure and very genuine.. One confession girl.. Earlier I thought you were fast and a girl with lot of attitude but sweets you made me proove wrong!!! Seriously happy to find a friend like you....



Ok now these have been the people whom I have met in person but there is a group of people whom I have'nt met and they have a made such a special strong bond with me that it would be really unfair on my part of not mentioning them!!!

When I honestly ask myself which person in my lives mean the most to me, I often find that it is that who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, has chosen rather to share my pain and touch my wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with me in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with me in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate now knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

And I did find all of this into all three of you!! Nikhil, Rishit and Rahul....

You have been like stars... I don't always see You, but I know you're always there.

You all have tolerated my tantrums, my sarcams, my taunts, have laughed with me, have understood my problems and the most important have always been there whenever I needed you... Specially Nikhil and Rishit.....

But summing this all does not mean I m not game for writing for three of you individually!!!


Rishit Kejriwal: Does his photograph not say everything??? Calm, Quiet.... That what he is!! He actually is a silent bomb!! He is an introvert person who rarely talks but once he starts he never does stop!!! and the best is yet to come... He is a brain... Very serious and focused.. A huge big box of PJ's... But he is one person whom you can reach anytime and everytime.. He can solve your problem within minutes... My critic and my partner in analyzing people and commenting on them!!! Very caring and concerned... He is the only one who has the hottest deals about all the gizmos and gadgets and computers... He is my travel planner for Dubai... To sum up he is one helluuvvaa sweet pies... And hopefully you must be enjoying his 'sonal free' days.. And dont mind cos I did praise you in the begining..... Take care dear Friend!!!

Ahem Ahem!!! Now is the turn of a very sweet nepali gujju...
Mr. Rahul Batavia: No I aint telling anyone what does this nepali gujju mean!! You will figure it out soon... Rahbat bhai.... That is what most of the people know him as!!! Well to begin with he is a real honey bunch... Never minds whatever i say!! I eat up his head while he is at work... He has mindblowing hindi... (yes that is a taunt Mr Rahbat)
He is a gym freak!! and I have promised him to teach salsa and play basketball once we reach IMT Dubai... Well right now I m not getting many words to describe him but I m sure will do that very soon!!!
Love ya buddy for your liveliness and optimism... Will definitely look forward to meet you soon and be better friends!!!


Last But not the least Mr. Apple...(sorry did not find a better pic than this!!)
I mean Mr. Nikhil Parab....
He is one of his kinds who actually can sell ice in Himalyas.. Can make you laugh untill you dont get churn ups in ur stomach!!! Can actually embarrass you anywhere and everywhere!!!
My Teamie..... I would just like to say this for you...
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay."
And I found such a friend in you, I feel happy and complete going to a new world because now I need not worry. I have a forever friend, and forever has no end." Right Teamie???

In the end I would just like to say that it is only because of all of you that i have been able to see bright dreams..
I am really looking forward to A great Journey... Everyday will be a journey.. And every journey will be my home.....................

A letter To The SUNSHINE.....

P.S. ok... i know this is supposedly an end part in any writings and communications but i have to mention it at the top because i want you all to know that i have derived the meaning of my name SONAL from sunshine.... Sonal is the golden colour given to the clouds by the sunshine during the dawn... hence sunshine forms the very essential part of my existance... of my life and most importantly of my being myself!!!

It was about 10 in the morning on 14th of May 2008... How can i forget this date?? I was writing my compensation and reward management exam that suddenly there was a thunder striking.. All went into complete darkness... It seemed that the clouds have engulfed the daylight and covered the sky with the blanket of darkness.. It was precisely a night during the day...

The sun was there, the stars were there, the sky was there, the wind, the rain, the trees every thing et all was there... But there was something missing... and that was Sunshine........

The emptiness in the sky, the darkness in the day, the gobbling nature of whether all was due to one reason... The missing Sunshine~~~~~~~~~

This is a letter to That missing sunshine whom we all forget in the light and presence of sun... afterall when the sunshine gathers it is then and only then that sun is called the SUN!!! We tend to forget the presence of small things in our life and even miss out their importance but then we ought to realize that these small things only make up our life beautiful, happy, fortunate and providential.

So here goes my letter to Sunshine just to request her to stay in my life forever.....

Dearest Sunshine,

People always say that 'A rainy day is the perfect time for a walk in the woods' but they often for get that it is always better ' to make hay while there is sunshine'... I have been dearly missing you and want you to come back into mylife again... I want to sing, dance, cry, laugh and see all the beautiful colours of life with you......

Wake up sunshine, this is your day..Come and see me for I have lots to say...

I really miss you when you leave making me feel lonely and blue!!!

From the heavens will rain tears of grief...

Wake up sunshine there's something you should see

There sits your loving me...

I cried so hard to call you back

Dont want anybody but only your thy lap!!!

and even you know that its no time to laeve me...

Wake up sunshine, for I wont be alright if you arent here!!!

You are my gaurdian angel... You are my flight,

You are my only love, You are my light!!!

You are my happiness ,you are my luck....

Dont be so late that I'll get you in the end...

when my life will wait to get you back in the next life!!!

Give my name the meaning you ought too...

Dont ever leave me.... I'll die without you....

You are the pleasue i have always desired...

You are pure you are divine!!!!

Hope to see u soon back into my life...

Waiting for your awaited reply

Love u forever

Sonal Sunshine.......

Stranger.. True Love or True Friendship????

"A stranger you were once.

Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.
As our lives engaged,you lit my life and I held both your hands.
Now that i want decades to pass this way... so that ours souls indeed become one.
How fortunate we are that we have found the love so true that everyone dreams about."

Dont be like surprised to see back on blogging and stuff... Firstly I ask for a big apology for not coming on this blog and writing my thoughts over here. Prerna this goes for you too my li’l sis who complained me about not coming out here..
Ok now coming to the main point as to why I have come here and who actually is behind me coming over here and putting my mind at work and making my thoughts again run at a greater speed than I can actually handle them..

It was just last night that I realized the purest and truest form of love ever... All that came after having like a two and a half hour chat with Mr. X. I confess out publicly that I have fallen deply in love with Mr. Jo Bhi (pls dont anuone dares ask me who is Mr. X...) and I really wanted to be with him but anyhow the circumstances are such that I cant even afford to think about all this. But that does not mean that I have stopped dreaming about this happening or not hoping that things wont turn out in my favour .. in fact I have started seeing dreams in which I am painting my dreams and they are turning into reality. I see every dream being realized and that too with the same colours that I wished them to be filled with….

My Dreams are as Rosy and as Pretty as nobody can even imagine.... The beauty of my Dreams lies In My Eyes....

There is a man named Mr. X for me and you all even... I have just been talking to him for hardly a week but i have fallen for him in this span... I dont know much abut him rather i just know what all he has told me about himself but then do we really need to give ourselves and life only to people whom we know very well???

I actually realized that it is wrong to think that love comes from long companionshipand persevering courtship. But Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, itwill not be created... What i mean to say is that he was a complete stranger to me with whom i shared the best compatibility level i could have shared with anybody else... He gave me so much of space without even making me realize that he has occupied the most of it.... I fell for him so naturally that i didn even realize that..... I just couldn help myself ...

He has taught me the very basic fundas of love and light... Just because you know someone doesn't mean you love them, and just because you don't know people doesn't mean you can't love them. You can fall in love with a complete stranger in a heartbeat, if God planned that route for you. So open your heart to strangers more often. You never know when God will throwthat pass at you. He was a stranger but now he knows me even more than i know myself....

I know you all must be thinking that I have lost my mind that i beieved that man so much that i expressed my feelings for him straight on his face (yes he does know that i love him) but then i didn trust him much as i trusted the faith deep down inside my heart...Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe.. Faith is the bird that feels the light when the dawn is still dark...
But the biggest question lying in front of me is that how will I make myself understand regarding all this ...
Pls dont tell me to stop thinking about him because that is just impossible....

“It is impossible to fall out of love. Love is such a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you it does not depart. True love is eternal. If you think that you were once in love, but fell out of it, then it wasn't love you were in. There are no 'exit' signs in love, there is only an 'on' ramp.”

But to conclude I would just like to say one thing...

"I have learnt that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance... Same goes for true love.. Where you find true friendship you find True Love......."

I'll try to be his best friend now on will make him my best friend!!!!

Josie Posie !!!!

This one is just for u my darling Josie......

I have a friend
Who is perfect for me
She listens to all my problems
No matter how dumb they may be

She likes herself for who she is
And never tries to change
She tells me to be myself
And that I should never change

She was shy on the phone
But she would still call
And we would talk for hours
About nothing at all

We would talk about love and life
And discuss what we wanted to be
She knew just how I felt
And how happy I could be

She listens to me patiently
But never judges what I do or say
She helped with all my problems
And never went away

I never once felt judged by her
How much that meant to me
That I could tell her all my dreams
And she would listen to me

My friend never goes and tells
What is dear to me
She keeps it all bottled up inside

And doesn't spread it like a bee

I am thankful for that friend of mine
Our friendship will never end
And she will always be there

For she is my best friend.............................................................................................

!!!!!~~~~Friends Forever~~~~!!!!!

WOOOf!!!!!!! the amazing long drive on a super romantic day on the express way..... It was himanhsu driving his Laura....








A freak out at the adventure island..... That was one of the most adventourous day of my life....

That bus drive.. waiting at the bus stand,, then waiting at the metro station, endless ride on the metro ..... ultimately covering 45kms to reach home via an auto.......


And the best part.... riding on the devils ride 7 times and laughing like a maniac.......

Enjoyed like one does on a scary hell night!!!!


What say??? Thats the card Party at Home sweet Home.....

This is Life....

An insight .... illumination about myself!!

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.